What’s your plan God? This was the theme of my life when I found out that I was pregnant with my second baby.

It was definitely a surprise! I thought he had made his plans clear for me and I was excited for the ministries I had previously committed to; but the news of a pregnancy felt like a U-turn. As I went to him with honesty, he responded back to me with Psalm 139 :13-16:

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”

Not only did God place in my heart through his conversation with me that I was going to have a daughter, but he also extended his upcoming plans not for me but for her, and it was something I’d never experienced before. After this day, I felt privileged to be carrying a person that God was going to use for his kingdom.

During my twenty- week check-up, the doctor told me my baby had her aorta on the wrong side. It was identified as a right-sided aortic arch and from there my OB-GYN started giving me information on possible other issues the baby might have in connection to this. Every follow up, the doctors told me about possible genetic syndromes, deficiencies the baby might have, and even the option of termination.

All of this was a bit overwhelming for me, and as a mother it broke my heart. I immediately took it to Jesus because I knew that he was the only one who could make things right. My baby’s life was not for me to control but for him. Every time the doctor asked if I wanted to check for more issues, I said NO. The weeks became more stressful with one month left until baby was due. My OB-GYN suddenly gave me the news that in order for her to deliver my baby, I needed to be induced. I felt such strong sense to say NO to that too, and I knew that whichever doctor would end up delivering my baby it would be a doctor chosen by God. He really assured me that he would be the captain and the head doctor.

Over these periods of alarming and discouraging news, I’d reached out to Empower prayer team and they interceded and prayed for me and my baby. On the day I delivered my baby, we felt the presence of God so heavily in the entire labor room. It was such a beautiful birthing experience for me. It was a healthy natural birth, and no pain- just as everyone had prayed for. Not only this, but the staff were also believers; so as I had praise songs playing the entire time, the nurses jumped in and worshipped with me and my husband. As the song Break Every Chain came on, we were all raising our arms in the air shouting the lyrics! On April 21 Jada Victory Harang made her debut, hearing the truth that there is power in the name of Jesus. Baby Jada is super healthy, she eats so well, and is growing strong too!

She recently received a CT scan, and her aorta is still right sided. Because it’s on the wrong side it loops over the trachea creating a ring around it. However, she’s been asymptomatic so far, so no breathing or eating problems. Her doctors are really impressed and want to see her back in two months. Medically, the next step would be a small surgery procedure before she turns one. This will allow her to continue growing without any breathing troubles so that she can grow up normally not having to restrain from doing sports.

Though His plans are not always my plans, he is faithful, a promise keeper and healer, and he is a good father. He pushed down deeply into me an unexplainable level of peace and joy and comforted me that he is in control. He has continued to speak to me through a number of praise songs that emphasized that all I need to do is praise his name and witness his wonders. God is so good, and our family is enjoying God’s powerful presence in our home and family, and over Jada.

Grace Kim serves as a women’s ministry director in Bayside, NY and is a student at Alliance Theological Seminary in the Masters in Biblical Studies Program. Her husband is the English Ministry Pastor at a Korean American Presbyterian Church (Haeun Church). She graduated EMPOWERone in May 2020, and this year served as an assistant mentor as well as the NYC site prayer coordinator.

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